some people have it easy. they don't bother to think about things, always running about acting rashly and sometimes outright stupidly. and they like to hold that up as an excuse. sorry if i'm not able to make that mistake once in awhile. sorry if i accidently step on some toes every millenia or so and enrage someone for it. nevermind the fact that i may have let them walk all over me at one time and still show them respect as human beings. sorry if i don't fit the profile of what people expect me to be, don't do what people expect me to do, say what people don't want me to say. i'm tired of bowing out and letting things linger. i'm tired of just giving in to others and letting them step on my toes without just cause. i'm tired of being cast down because i make one tiny mistake while others are allowed to live, breathe, speak mistakes constantly and be rewarded with attention and love for it. for making an attempt to contain and overcome my own flaws as a person, i am cast down when one is shown. maybe i should start pinning those flaws to my shirt like little pieces of flair. i may not be able to show off 75 pieces of flair like some, but i'm sure i could come up with something. then again, that's not who i am. i can't walk around whining about my faults. i can't go about showing off my flaws and silently begging for people to love me. it's not in my script. it's not in my character to do that.
expect little from me for awhile outside of a few friend's only posts here and there, maybe a pointless post now and again. i'll be focusing my time on LJ trying to do things productive, like helping out with LJ. if anyone really needs me, they know how to contact me. old reliable, i am. old i feel. reliable i've always been. too bad so few have ever known how i've always been. thanks to those few...
