i'm falling. where and when i'll land is hard to guess. typically i'd pull my arms in and try to gain as much speed as possible so that the impact will be swift. so why am i flailing about trying to find something to slow my descent? what's different this time? once upon a time, i believed the best method of getting past any and all pain was to wrap your arms around yourself during descent so that you'd burn up on re-entry. why is it that i can't seem to do that this time?
i own some good mood music though.
and i can't escape the idea that this is what life will be like forever and ever amen.
are you happy
wandering