my mom was asking me yesterday if i wanted to have some sort of birthday party this weekend. i didn't know how to explain to her how weird i feel throwing myself a party. i know it's customary to have a birthday party for your birthday of some sort, but i feel weird telling people they should come to my house to celebrate me. say what you will, but to me it feels selfish. which is stupid of me because i don't think it's selfish when people throw themselves birthday parties, only if i throw myself a birthday party. i like going to other people's birthday parties. when it comes to my own birthday though, i feel like i'm guilt-tripping people into coming to spend time with me. me and my self-esteem issues i guess...
anyway, i'm going to head out of here. my conference call is over, so my need to be at the office is finito. i may be online later from the house, we shall see. my plans for the day include being a lazy ass and doing nothing. i'll probably be bored in an hour.
