February 17th, 2005

Seriously though

To get a section 8, you have to tell them you're crazy, but only a sane man knows that he's crazy...

Whether it be games, work, women, or any other random thing in life, I find that I do better when I don't care and I don't try than I do when it makes a difference to me. How does one become indifferent to everything in life? If I try to be indifferent, won't I simply fail at being indifferent? Can you be indifferent about being indifferent? The only two women whom I've felt comfortable having any sort of physical interaction with (ie holding hands, initiating a kiss, the sort of stuff that involves taking a swing and getting to first base), I was indifferent about how they'd react because I knew that I wouldn't be hurt by the outcome. I can play a mean game of pool if I'm not paying attention to the game. Work isn't a problem for me until I start to focus on it and don't let myself just go with the flow.

I am my greatest foe. Until I figure out how to defeat myself, I can never win. I will always defeat myself. Anyone got a cheat code? The Contra code doesn't seem to work.
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Two more hours. Most of the people I was hired with have left for the day. It finally settled in that I'm leaving this morning. My "last" day at the old job went by pretty uneventfully, mostly because I'd only bonded with Susan and most other people there didn't really relate with me on any level other than the fact that we worked together. Not to imply that I've bonded deeply with the people I work with, but I have made friends with people here. Happy hour last night was a good time and the lunch they put together for me today was great. I'm leaving a very warm and friendly environment to go back to the small office where no one invites me out for happy hours, no one knows my political inclinations or musical interests or that I exist outside of the office.