November 18th, 2003

into this night i wander

i bet you think this song is about you, don't you?

Yoko Kanno - Call Me, Call Me

I close my eyes and I keep seeing things
Rainbow waterfalls
Sunny liquid dreams
Confusion creeps inside me raining doubt
Gotta get to you
But I don't know how
Call me call me
Let me know it's alright
Call me call me
Don't you think it's 'bout time
Please won't you call and
Ease my mind
Reasons for me to find you
Peace of mind
What can I do
To get me to you

I had your number quite some time ago
Back when we were young
But I had to grow
Ten thousand years I've searched it seems and now
Gotta get to you
Won't you tell me how
Call me call me
Let me know you are there
Call me call me
I wanna know you still care
Come on now won't you
Ease my mind
Reasons for me to find you
Peace of mind
What can I do
To get me to you
Come on now won't you
Ease my mind
Reasons for me to find you
Peace of mind
Reasons for livin my life
Ease my mind
Reasons for me to know you
Peace of mind
What can I do
To get me to you
  • Current Music
    Yoko Kanno - Blue
into this night i wander

Rumors follow everywhere you go...

Drip. Drip. Drip. For days, the faucet had been leaking. Drip. Drip. Drip. At first it was simply annoying. I turned the tv on for awhile, cranking up the volume to tune it out. After a couple hours, enough water had accumulated in the basin that it was making a loud plunking sound. No matter how high I turned up the volume on the tv, I could still hear it. Eventually I turned the tv off in disgust and decided to read a book. Six hours later I'd tuned it out.

It's been a week. I've barely moved from my chair. Food, piss, sit, sulk. Drip. Drip. Drip. There's a puddle on the floor, growing drip by drip by drip. A fifteen second walk to the kitchen sink would solve the problem. It isn't like I haven't been in there a half-dozen times since the sink started leaking. At some point the sound just became comforting. Around day 3, the sink was overflowing, so the dripping doubled it's speed, one drip in the sink, one on the floor. Drip drip. Drip drip. Drip drip. It wasn't as though I didn't know that this leak was going to destroy everything. I was well aware of the high water bill that I'd be seeing in the near future. I knew just how much damage that water on the floor was doing. Stopping the leak would have required a minimum of effort. Yet, for some reason, there was a tiny wall in my brain that just wouldn't let me turn the handle on the faucet. Drip drip. Drip drip. Drip drip. The sink was bringing about the self-destruction of my home. Drip drip. Drip drip. Drip drip. I just sat in my chair, staring off into space, drifting further from reality. Drip drip. Drip drip. Drip drip. Eventually it'll end. Eventually all things end.
  • Current Music
    Gin Blossoms - Until I Fall Away
zissou

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Plans for the evening: 24. That is unless I go stir crazy or find something better to do with my time. I'd like better things to do. That's not happening. I'll probably throw some Rogue Squadron III in there as well for good measure. Perhaps I'll even go so far as to edit and lengthen the piece I wrote today. That might be getting a little overly ambitious though...
  • Current Music
    NIN - Slipping Away (Things Falling Apart mix)
phonepost, beans beans the musical fruit

The fruit is rusting on the vine, the fruit is calling from the trees...

Chess and hot chocolate with good company are a great way to spend the evening. Sure, I missed 24 (which my brother forgot to tape, meaning I'm going to have to hunt for a copy [HELP!]), but it was worth getting out of the house for. Hanging out with Bob put me into a much better mood.

I'm debating my plans for Thanksgiving. My mom and brother are heading 4 hours out of town to visit some family, but I can't make it because I'm housesitting for Jen's mom and need to be back at a reasonable hour to take care of the animals (read as: I don't want to make a 4 hour car trip). My two options at this point are to either go out to my grandmother's (an option that I dread because it's my dad's family and I dislike most of them) or I can spend the day lounging about and pretending it isn't a holiday. Currently I'm leaning towards the latter, but I'll miss experiencing the holiday with people. I'm a sucker for people watching on holidays, even if it's my own family. I should form a coalition with other people who aren't celebrating and do something entertaining. I'll probably just end up at my grandmother's. :-/
  • Current Music
    Cold Play - Bigger Stronger