August 17th, 2003

into this night i wander

i only want you to see my favorite part of me, not my ugly side...

"a letter to myself", or "adrift in the space that is mediocrity"
i don't know
what i'm going to be
i don't know
where to go from here
i don't know
when i'll feel complete, much less be
i don't know
why you find solace in me
i don't know
how i can live up to my image of myself, much less yours
i miss
snack time as a little kid
pouring over books in the library in elementary school
feeling pride from learning something new
eagerness
sleeplessness before christmas morning
so many different "you"s (wouldn't you like to know?)
believing that i am amazing
believing that i could be amazing
believing that life is amazing
believing in things fantastic
believing in the possibility of happily ever after
a time when i didn't feel so lethargic
so lost
so alone
so out of touch with myself
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