August 14th, 2001

zissou

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What did people do before they became so obsessed with LJ that they couldn't endure the least amount of downtime? What did they occupy that time with? Does anyone remember?
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zissou

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thought i'd let everyone know that i'll be seen online a little less (though not a whole lot) for the next few weeks. i won't go into it. it's all a bunch of craziness that would only happen to me. *sighs* i'll still be around during the day (thank god for an ISDN connection at work...), but you'll rarely see me in the evenings. If you do, be amazed....

*deep sigh*

i will survive. i'm too stubborn not to....
zissou

"Wherever you are, you will carry always; Truth of scars and darkness of your faith..."

i make myself out to be far stronger than i really am. i'm not admitting that to anyone in particular or saying that it applies to any particular situation currently. i just thought i'd make that confession. heck, maybe i am as strong as i make myself out to be since i often tend to believe i'm that strong. but i'm realizing that the amount of stuff i think i can deal with is far beyond the normal breaking point of humans. i don't consider myself abnormal, at least as far as my own limits and abilities. these don't compute. i'm worried about the fact that they don't compute. i've endured more crap throughout my 19 years than the average suburban white male who isn't involved in gangs or drugs.

i've survived a psychologically and sometimes physically abusive (i'm sure the inside of my lip has a nasty scar from the stiches...) father who never made it known that he acknowledged i existed unless he was wanting to yell at me about something.

i survived being an overly smart and pudgy kid who was never liked by most people and recieved the support of only a few adults (rarely was my mother one of them and never was my father one of them).

i've managed to get a good job, buy a decent car, and start going to college, mostly on my own two feet (with a little help from those who cared).

i've survived pain from love, pain from hate, pain from stupidity, any sort of pain that life has thrown at me.




the scars show. and i don't make an attempt to hide them. they've made me. they are me. and i am them. i like who i am. i like what i've become. whether i'm a product of my experience, i'm not certain. but what i do know is that i've always managed to survive. i've never been broken beyond repair. i've never given up. call me stubborn, but i refuse to give in. ever. i will not be beaten down. i will not be the downtrodden. i will overcome. damn it.
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zissou

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ARG! whilst half of LJ is getting fed up with server downtime, i'm getting fed up with whining users. site growth is not the fault of Brad or any of the other volunteers. and yet people are making angry, bitter support requests bitching about how they want the service working for them right now. guess what folks, just because the internet is up 24/7 doesn't mean that parts of it won't have a problem every now and then. if your cable is acting up for a few minutes, do you make a violent phone call to the cable company? no, you tend to wait and see if it is fixed and when it isn't, you call them and let them know. do you call the city when rush hour traffic is at a standstill and your stuck their for an hour? no, you live with it. i can understand paid users being a bit peeved and i can understand that those who paid specifically so they could use the paid servers might be peeved. i also think they are idiots because they should have done a little more homework on what they were buying. yes the paid servers are faster, but they still share some processes as the free servers. meaning if the free servers cause a problem where these processes are done, it doesn't matter that you have access to the paid servers because you still can't perform those processes. boohoo. you go read a book or watch tv or interact with the real world. Livejournal is just a fucking website. it's not like your water has been cut-off, your electricity clipped, and your testicles gnawed off by a dog. there's no need to through a hissy fit. you think you're upset? think how brad must feel having 1000's of users breathing down his neck while he tries to fix his pride and joy? this site is probably the biggest part of his life. it shouldn't be like that, but it is. he doesn't have time to train anyone else to be able to do what he does because he spends so much time working on giving more and more features to the users, both free and paid. get off his back, out of his hair, and remove your dog from his testicles. he's doing his best and if that isn't good enough for you, you can bring it up with me and about a dozen other people.
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zissou

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i'm apologizing ahead of time. i have a lot of pent up negativity in me from the events of the last couple of days. i may be venting them over the next few days. be forewarned...