then there's film. i have a huge interest in getting into film. i love the power of the medium. but my knowledge of how the film industry works is still in the infant stages. it has yet to be cluttered with idiot notions and fool-hearty ideals like my other views.
i want to create something. i want to leave something meaningful behind to the world, even if i'm the only one to find it meaningful. writing doesn't fully capture those things i'd like to express, nor does music, photography, drawing, or anything else. but in film, you combine artistic mediums into a recreation of your view of life, whether it be idealistic, realistic, surrealistic, etc. it'll be expensive. if i decide to do this, it'll have to be a definite thing. i could always take the chicken route and get a film studies degree which would save me money by not having to buy a camera. in the end though, film is where i'd like to be. i'm sure this will all change in 6 months as my moods change, but i'd like to be optimistic and believe that this is a conviction i'll stick with. we'll see.